Change I must or die I will shoot in 2013

2013 My best friend was doing a photo shoot and last minute I got added. Neither me or the photographer knew each other or me the theme of the shoot.

“Change i must or die I will had been tattooed on my arm for a voile years at that point”

The shoot is the struggle for life battling your “demons” Adding me and my past and his wife’s minds all together the shoot became WAY more than what he originally planned. While I’m still an addict because that doesn’t just go away. My got contol of my demons when I was 18 after a 2 week period of Xanax BAD. From then on my addiction was at bay. I could pick something up and not again if I want. The tattoo is a reminder of my mental health because I was dangerous before.

Disclaimer THE NEEDLE IN THE LAST PICTURE is band aided on and edited. IM 32 and can NOT even see a needle without wanting to pass out. I’m only clarifying that because it was VERY controversial because people thought it was a real.

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frustrated and sad

I’m frustrated and sad because how much it took to catch my attention and when finally did (which is hard WASNT it? Then LET MY GUARD DOWN. and you fold?

Okay let’s keep it G. YOU SMARTER THAN THAT to believe anything along the lines of me being fake. Playing you and ect. YOUR A FUCKIN MORON to fall for the shit I warned you bout. AND IF IN fact a side was chosen. I HOPE YOU LOVE THE KARMA THAT COMES WITH IT.

Hmmhmm
Coulda caught me a bird for a war I started
But I found myself involved (Turn, turn)
Is there such a feelin' as bein' way too loyal?
Touch road and I grew some roses
Got straight out the mud of the soil (Turn, turn)
Is there such a feelin' as bein' way too loyal?
Always еight racks to show
How's [?] whipped up for bro
Is there such a feelin' as bеin' way too loyal?
Steady and slow always wins the race
I turned down million pounds and more money
Is there such a feelin' as bein' way too loyal?

“Your can’t stunt all you want talk all the shit you want but you will see like you said “time will tell”

HOPE TIME AND PRIDE DOESNT stop you from seeing reality before I give up 🆙

Hope you as G as you act cause them feelings going to make you sick when you realize you played ya self out A solid downass bitch.


I hope it makes you sick 😷 when you realized I was always real and even when I wasn’t fully aware:

Messages that work

Show that you value your freedom to think and act independently. You don’t do something because “everyone is doing it.” This helps your children see that unwanted peer pressure can be rejected.

Be consistent in your words and actions. For example, a phone call interrupts your dinner and you say, “Tell them I’m not home yet.” The message your children hear is that it’s okay to be dishonest for your own convenience.

Demonstrate your sense of self-respect and self-esteem. For example, taking care of your health through exercise and diet offers a strong model for your children. Be creative and consistent in your use of free time, showing that there are alternatives to being a “couch potato” or “hanging out.”

Demonstrate respect for your children’s lives and show concern by being a good listener. Be sincere, ask questions, and use a touch or a look for encouragement.

Be cautious in using prescription or over the counter medicines as a quick fix for pain or stress. Your example can help counter the media messages that discomfort can be cured by chemicals.

Be aware of how your own use of alcohol can influence children. Your children will notice how much you drink and why. Avoid using excuses for drinking, like having a rough day. Your drinking behavior tends to be the drinking behavior your children will have when they grow up.

Talk honestly about stress and conflict in your own life. Children need to know that such struggles are a normal part of life. They have a good model when they see that you are coping with problems without relying on alcohol and other drugs,

If you are trying to change something in your behavior such as quitting smoking of losing weight – be willing to talk about what works and what doesn’t.

Show that spending time with your children is something you value and look forward to. If you are too tired or too busy, they are likely to imitate your behavior.

Be open by showing that you love and value all family members. Single parents can provide as much affection and support as two-parent families can